Tremendous Blondette

How do you keep a blonde occupied for hours? Give her a bag of M&Ms and tell her to alphabetize them.

*groan*

I used M&Ms as study aids in college which became a bad habit. But when you’re sitting at a desk for hours, composing, editing, typing, trying to stay focused and productive (though your productively has always been bursty) you need something to do to stay away and use your fidgety energy. I can sit down and easily eat half a 12 oz bag of Almond of Peanut in one sitting. They start to lose their original deliciousness, but you keep popping them in, hoping that the next one will bring that same first delight.

This is a confession of a bad habit. It’s so unhealthy and I’m telling you about it because I just ate a fraction of a bag of M&Ms for no reason. I’m starting to think I’ve got some sort of chemical imbalance right now because I’m always wanting to eat.

Sometimes I don’t want to eat. Not lately. Lately all I can think about is food. I’m torn between whether this is stress induced – a comforting mechanism or just a simply my body being confused.

I know I write about food, body image, and exercise a lot. I am kicking around starting a separate blog to write about this quest. When I did so well those 5 years ago, part of my success was the community I had where I could talk about my struggles and accomplishments. The other factor was my LiveJournal for recording thoughts and feelings. Granted, it was a lot easier to devote my life to this when I was only working part time (well at the end I was working 40 hrs a week but that seems like part time to me now) and I could get up and work out at my optimal time (10am – 2pm; kinda hard to fit that into a normal work week.)

What do you think? Separate blog, or keep it here?

And that picture? It’s from my brother’s wedding. I’m the fat one of course!