Tremendous Blondette

Today I was feeling very much a mixing of emotion and indecision; bouncing from strength and humor to angst and depression. Mostly, I just know I need to do laundry, bathe my cat (she stinks), and hold myself accountable once again for my life. Eating Almond Joys really does not do anything but make me fat. I will not choose vodka and Chaka Khan. Each day I will contribute a verse.
(points to those who catch the references)

O ME! O life!… of the questions of these recurring;
Of the endless trains of the faithless—of cities fill’d with the foolish;
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light—of the objects mean—of the struggle ever renew’d;
Of the poor results of all—of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me;
Of the empty and useless years of the rest—with the rest me intertwined;
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?

Answer.

That you are here—that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse.

The terror touches the Midwest too; I usually tune out everything 9/11 because I don’t want to feel it, but lately I’ve been letting it in–I even watched Flight 93. It’s eery how quickly the time passes and how things change..

From a very cool chick I know out in Jersey–Lots of hard work went into this:

Our 9/11 coverage…

http://www.northjersey.com/911/

Remains of the Day.
Interviews with people who’s lives have changed since the attacks on 9/11.
http://northjersey.com/page.php?qst…3dnFlZU VFeXky
Photos and audio.

Then & Now.
Working with another team member putting together this flash slideshow that really captures how NYC has changed since 9/11.
http://northjersey.com/page.php?qst…3dnFlZU VFeXky
Flash photo gallery.

Portraits of 9/11
4 people return to the location they watched the events of 9/11 unfold
http://northjersey.com/page.php?qst…2cWVlRU V5eTM=
Photos and audio.

Been a bit since I’ve posted anything–there’s a reason. Life is busy and stressful. Mom might be going to the hospital. I’m looking for my own place but not sure I can afford it. Work is TEH STRESS and I really prefer to post about topics of substance. You know, like the cats and my fat ass(hey, it’s substantial!)

Well, I am officially “sick” so I am taking the day off from walking around the park. I’ll have to stick to the eating healthy until my body can handle exercise again. Doing laundry will have to count as my workout for today (hey, there’s a lot of stairs to climb!) Benedryl, Sudafed, and Ibuprofen every 4 hours!

I made it to Target yesterday and bought a scale. I weighed myself at 3 different times of day and the readings are all different (not shocked–and I, of course, have figured standard deviation and mean–it was pretty freaking easy though; I’m making graphs for this project fear not). I am going to do some official measurements and weigh in and set those as my marker for the beginning. This will be a science project of sorts. Yes, I am that nerdy.

I’ll post some embarrassing pictures too so you can see how fat I was. Trust me, it’s worth it to check back for those *cry*

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A true internet favorite of mine is The Fat Project that started on Spark.com. These days Spark is all about online dating and doesn’t contain a lot of the fun stuff I wasted my time on, but the Fat Project lives on!

I have decided to start my own Reverse Fat Project. Yes, it is time for me to once again check myself before I wreck myself. I lost about 70 pounds between February 2005 and the end of 2005. However, since about February 2006 I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus. I used to workout about 5 days a week–that was before I had a full time job to worry about in addition to my home and family life. (another story entirely) I no longer take that time to care for myself and it’s showing. Gradually, I’ve picked up the bad habits of munching on sugar and candy (which honestly 99% of the time makes me feel yucky) which has caused me to pick up about 5 or 10 pounds.

So here is my Fat Project Version 2006. My goal is to get to the ideal weight zone for my height–I’m 5′5″ so I should weigh 119-149 pounds. This means losing about 30 pounds (and really I’d like to lose 50-60) I’m pulling all these numbers out of my ass though because I haven’t stepped on a scale in over a year!

I’ve updated my iPod and made my first visit to Loose Park to walk (eventually it will be running again!)

Wish me luck!

PS. I took a few minutes to hit the swings over by the Rose Garden–as usual!

Check out the rest of the photo set from October 05 at Loose Park Kansas City!